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Friday: Stayed at Jack's got fly sprayed and talked to myself lots...
Saturday: Kelly's party didn't enjoy it too much...
Sunday: Jimmy's flatwarming was a-maz-ing...
Monday: went shopping :)

: D

Awesome weekend!
I'm in a good place.

Party

I love this weekend!
Lots of parties to go to.
: D its going to be a fucking amazing weekend.

Hahahaahahaha

I invited myself ae?
nice.

I enjoyed hanging out with you two but I still think we should got to the cat show.

hmm

Got all my work done today and I feel really good!
Made pancakes omnomnom.

You have changed, why?
It's sad.

School

I'm not a failure this year!
Getting so much work done, gosh NCEA is cake!
I'm proud of myself for once.

Will I ever find my way of of this labyrinth

Haha

You sure proved your maturity.
Grow up.

Why

Why can't I be friends with somebody you like?
We have meet twice I know nothing about him.
Isn't it obvious that I'm not looking for somebody right now?
You are insane.

Drum solo

I danced the night away playing my air guitar and hitting on my drums. The night was slow at first but soon was over with the sound of thought creature in my ears. I headed back to Sumner. I drank until all I wanted was sleep. I woke with some sort of cold as usual sick again.

Niiiight

The night has crept... It is a beautiful night.... I'm with a beautiful girl..... With a beautiful room around us.... With a beautiful life...

Today

I made the best vegan pizza while I spend half the day hanging at home not wanting to face school. Waiting for the day light to creep away taking my problems with it only leaving the good times and sweet people.

Teachers only days

Are fun.
Waiting for Friday for Grace to stay
Waiting for RyRy to have his 16th
Waiting for myself to make my mind up about hin
Waiting for the summer
Waiting for a better place
Waiting to be free of this world.

Today

It sure was nice.

Its true!

My life is like a film I swear its not the drugs.

Weekend

I have the best pot I have ever seen, thanks Ric
I bought a cone and its purple
Mum dragged me bra shopping and I'm now a bloody E
I have eaten so much this weekend I swear I'm waddling
I bought this really nice green eye shadow
Hung out with Jack for the last week none stop its nice
Need to tidy my room haven't done that today
And buy film for my camera
<3

:)

You now kiss me sober and say I love you back...

O.0

We kissed long and passionate....
Did it mean something to you?
If it didn't why didn't you stop...
Was it just because we were high?
If you didn't like it you would of only kissed my once...
You have left me with high hopes and empty emotion.

GnKUHJHGJHKJkhghhh

You said you want to think before you know if you want a relationship with me...
I wonder how long it will take.
It's hard for me to sit here and wait.
Hold on to what hope I have left.
I love you

rtyuijopnkm;l

Well he is going with his head not his heart.
But he said he still adores me :/
Hmm time to move on.

Tehehe

Maybe there is hope!
I love how it is now a game to see if i can get you back!
Fuck that phone call was epic hahahhahah i love you.

:/

I told you how I feel.
I want to give you my all.
I can hardly see the computer screen my tears making the world seem so fuzzy.
You have my heart.
I can't take it back I feel like it has become apart of you.

Last night

Rave
Pills
More pills
Dance
High
Bus
Home
high
No sleep
Mothers day
Still high.

Morning :)

I woke up bright and early and turned on some Bright Eyes. I opened my window to let in the fresh air and I just know it's going to be a really good night. My sleep-out looks so much bigger when I let the light in haha.
Blood test today, god crohns is a bitch ahahh.

OH GOD

HAHAHHA I just found this Vid xD

Today

Was amazing! I feel bad for making people upset because how close me and Megan have become. Its just I feel I can be myself around her, thats it.
Seeing my brother was good we talked about growing up and drugs... I now wont have to worry about how to get them hahah.
Tomorrow is going to be even better, going to drop some pills and dance the night away weeeeee then Mags will come back to mine : D.

You.

I like you...
But do you know it?
:/

My msn to Jack lol

[21:20:22] Kate :) says:
I miss saying my 'get it' jokes I miss having funny sex I miss play fighting I miss staying at yours I miss your mum being drunk I miss your smell I miss your cat I miss your toast I miss sumner I miss holding your hand I miss having showers with you I miss our seshs I miss wearing your clothes I miss being on your bebo I miss everyone wanting what we have I miss your kisses I miss your sister I miss frozen cokes and purple straws I miss our shopping trips I miss your lopsided smile I miss your morning texts I miss you walking me home at night I miss skating with you I miss going to parties with you I just miss you

Things you may or may not know

-It's 7:34pm
-I have low self esteem
-I was vegetarian for three years
-I had my first crush on a girl when I was 11
-I'm not over my ex and not scared to admit it
-I love meeting new people
-I hate people hating me
-My lucky number is nine
-I have crohns disease
-I drink around four cups of coffee a day
-I'm an aunty four times
-I'm a clean freak
-I tidy my room everyday
-I wash my hair everyday
-I love animals
-I feel the cold and have to keep my room warm with two heaters
-I don't have any hobbies
-I like someone I cant have
-I do tarot cards
-I'm a Capricorn
-I used to think I could turn into a cat
-I used to think I was a witch
-I used to think Marilyn Manson was really hot
-My second toe isn't longer than my first
-My thumbs are so skinny they look like fingers
-They don't make my bra size, my back is too narrow
-I live in a sleep-out
-My favorite colour is purple
-I want a nose job
-My eyes always change colour
-I suck my tongue when I'm relaxed
-I can keep secrets
-I could keep going forever.

My day

Today was lovely.
I drank lots of coffee and went to all my classes.
After school was really nice to hang out with new people and of course some old ones.
I need to hangout with Mags and Brittany more I feel like I can really be myself around them and they wouldn't judge :).
Ehehhe there was this pedo on the shuttle he was like o.0.
I seem to be finding small things such as getting a nice text or just listening to a good song on my ipod really uplifting.
Looking forward to the rave on Saturday lol and seeing my brother tomorrow night will be nice.

Today

Today was fun
Me and Mags hung out all day
Went back to mine and got happy
My room smells now

Morning :)

Didn't get much sleep last night. Instead I sat up looking through my memory box... It always makes me think and I did a tarot reading after that it was about 1 and I made myself find sleep.
This morning has been nice, its not very cold for once :)
Hope I have a good day : D

Cubin dear

He gave me a poem he wrote about our relationship its sad but true.

Utter perfection,
Seemingly resolute beauty.
Nothing could distort this, surely,
This utopian relationship between two.

Gradually, changes begin to occur,
Imperceptible to the watcher.
But as time passes by,
This constant inescapable shift begins to show itself.

Nothing will halt its progress
The wheels of change, set in motion.
Soon all the splendor there once was,
Will be a mere memory.

Hahahah Ill stop posting I swear

But I have to say....
My hair is getting long long long
Ehhhhhhhh yay no more dyke hair!

Reinvented

After Jack I was messed up I mean I loved him. What I should of done is try move on and not take it too personally but what I did was become someone else. I was someone slutty and gross someone I no longer like so I have told them to move out and leave old Kate alone to stand on her own, find her own feet in this big messed up world and you know what? I'm doing just fine :)
I just have to remember to stay true to myself and that I can do just fine on my own.
I will keep on smiling.
: D

You.

I think you are beautiful.
I think you are cute.
I think you are sweet.
I think you are kind.
I know you are hurt.
I know you don't like me.
I know I miss you.
I know I want you.
And I know I would treat you right.
How I wish you could see the potential, the potential of you and me.
Its like a book elegantly bound but in a language that you can't read, just yet.

WERTCYVBUINMO<

After all of last night waiting for school it was a real let down :/ maybe i should stop getting excited about things.
Ryan and Nick caught my bus in the morning and we all go coffee, that was nice.
I like a girl....
She is beautiful....
;)

Guess what?

I'm back!
Couldn't stay away now I'm not just bored but hungry haha and Mother took the bread out of my room -___-
RAWR msn is kinda entertaining me but still kinda failing at the same time haha.
God it is only 11:29 how time ticks by so slowly.
I should just suck it up and go to sleep haha.
NIGHT!

I'm bored

I know I should sleep but my mind is wide awake, my eyes are trying to shut but the light in my head burns to bright so I continue to aimlessly text a drunk Ryan and blog. I want tomorrow to come faster so I have something to do haha. I want to see Yssie after reading though her blog It made me miss her, she is so cute ^.^.
What to do? What to do?
Ill give msn a shot.
As Ryan's messages get harder to read I get more restless.
OH! Now Michelle is texting, she can join the sleepless party.
Even Mischa has been asleep for hours.
I have now looked though all my photos from the weekend hahah look how red my eyes are ;}
I should end this blog but then I know I will just be writing another post in about half an hour :/.
Kate needs... A lover... Hmmm o.0
End?

Blah

I changed up the look of my blog.. Fun stuff.
I'm looking forward to school tomorrow and I don't know why :) I'm enjoying life at the moment and It's nice not to be all emo about everything, now lets see how fast that can change.
They say you always love your first love I really hope this isn't true as I don't think I could handle that hahah.
I'm texting Ryan, he makes me smile... Good old drunken Ryry.
I miss (you) the holidays.
Yayyayya I saved just enough money for a coffee tomorrow morning so I get to see my coffee guy wooopee

The weekend...

Wow what a party tehe.

Friday: Beth and I stayed at Natalie's and got just a tad 'happier' than usual ;) It was very fun even if I did just sit there making arab jokes and playing Neopet games add me btw I'm katiepie791 :)

Saturday: Natalie stayed at mine and we got 'happy' and drunk a bottle of bourbon. It was crazy fun.
Photos from the night.




Sunday: Went shopping with my clothing money : D Bought... A white v-neck t-shirt with a camera on it, this cardigan styled shirt, a cardigan I have wanted for ages and ages some red and black tights and this amazing trench coat that was on sale for only $109 : D