Gone burgers

Best Christmas eve by far, HAHAHAHA don't ask.
MERRY CHRISTMAS :D

Yeah I really do

Love you but its okay because I know you love me too.

Down down down buzzing

Summer soulstice will soon change that

Haha I feel sorry for the world

Mummmama decided she is going to officially adopt Zenara!
Partners in crime foreverrrr.
She reminds me of my old bestbestbest friend Tessa if she had gone down a different path.
;D

Fag

In love with life

cool

life is just

A box of animal crackers

Hmmmmmm

Have not slept
Tripping
Swimming is lovely

Nara pretty much my sister

Known her for 3 weeks and we are living together :D

I don't think I have been so attached to somebody so quickly.

Unpacking now!

And mum loves her to bits.

Life is perfect.

three cops and an ambulance

Always! Always! Hold onto your drink and if you have to put it down get somebody you trust to watch it.

Blank

I don't have much to say even though my days have been filled with exciting adventures all the people I would tell were with me so as usual another almost blank post for me.

Beautiful night and a beautiful day

Never have I tripped with so many people It was amazing watching how everybody reacts different.
Beautiful weather!

Holidays

I have been so busy this last week but it has been one of the best weeks :)

Really, really looking forward to tonight!

Well best be off as I'm having coffee with Andre.

x

Freedom

Came home with Nara to a brand new car!

Nana cars ftw!

The best bit was the test drive.

Change

Single Pringle no more

Because maybe

All I really am is a deer in the headlights...

At last

Holidays are here, drinks in the gardens are therapeutic
:)

3 days

Tobacco free
:)

Byeeeeeeeeee

So over the internet :)
Life is so good right now, everything is falling into place.
These holidays are going to be the best ever! Nara and I have a list of things we have to do before they are over... I have a feeling I'm not going to see my Unlimited friends which is pretty gay but all of a sudden I am doing so many new crazy things with new people and well pretty much being happier than I could ever imagine so I guess I can't complain.
Haven't been to school is ages me and Motherturkey have decided that I may as well just not go for awhile.... See you next year suckers!
Love youuuuuuuu

I should not be allowed near giant vegetables

Cabbage Down

This part of my blog is devoted to the poor gigantic cabbage that sadly lost its life on the evening of Friday the 6th of November as it was furiously stabbed by drunk teenagers with knives cups and even a jug at one point. It was a massacre. R.I.P Giant Cabbage
06/11/09 - 06/11/09 Didnt even last a day

Weekends hurt

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December the 11th

And they were all purple

The sun is shining, Radiohead is playing and I'm wearing just your T-shirt.

I smile because everything is even more beautiful than one could imagine.

I smile because life is perfect like you.

So keep smiling and so will I.

Woah.

Wine

Josh, Luke, Richie and Cam

Kidnapping Craig

Hills

20minute hike over rocks and up a cliff

Perfect spot you could see all of Christchurch

Treats

Session

Woah

Fireworks

Woah

WOAH

Trying but failing at climbing down

Ages later

Car

Home

Massive feed.

So yeah it was a pretty good night.

Perfect day

Smoking

The

Ocean.

Busy bee

My first exam is less than two weeks away now so I'm studying lots and lots.

Thanks to Andre who explains what's going unlike my other teachers I should be fine.

Aaron's 18th on Saturday! $500s worth of fireworks should make for one beautiful night.

You couldn't wipe this smile off my face

Happy!

Gorgeous day much?

I love everybody in my life, thanks for putting up with my shit, I promise ill put up with yours.

:)

Halloween

Last night was crazy. So many people. I would explain more but it was one fucked up night... In a really good way.

This is it

Tonight was lovely, I went up to the hills with everybody, I mean everybody. The view was absolutely gorgeous, Christchurch is pretty alright even though I don't admit it often. After the hills we all went to Sumner which was nice I have always loved it there and I must admit I have had some of the best times there. I got far too drunk. Josh was lovely enough to drop me home, now I'm home and I can'tcan'tcan't wait for tonight!

Today(lol its 5am) will be nice. I plan to wait for the rents to wake up so I can make a coffee, have a shower ect then I'm going to go shopping I need some random shit and I need to get the last items for my costume. Apart frlm that and most likely napping Its really just killing time until the halloween party!

Happy Holloween!

In five years time

Torn between living in the present or living for the future.

I know I do a lot of stupid things but I also know I'm enjoying myself, happiness is important too right?

You are my prince charming

Even if your granddad scares the shit out of me.

I will always remember the nights spent fucked out of our tree sleeping munted in the back seat of your car, waking up early because the car overheats and you telling me my hungover face is still pretty.

You are the memories I want to remember.

Stunnahhh

It was a gorgeous day, spent well :)

I really need to catch up on sleep, I look the a zombie.

Sleep is really wonderful and I miss getting a full nights rest, waking up satisfied ready to take on the world.

Boring blogs, day after day.

Writers block.

Gorgeous day!

Today I am going get over the hate for my legs and not wear tights... Maybe.

Ill get picked up my Lukebaby and then go into town to see Jack, Cam and Richie.

It is such a beautiful day, use it well!

I'm trying to quit smoking *thumbs up*

Hahah Its not that easy.

Couldn't sleep

Sick as a dog waiting for Luke to pick me up, I know a session will help me find rest.

Amen for having friends with their full license.

Sweet dreams.

Happy birthday beautiful

Went out for dinner with the family, I'm so full!

I had to stay away from the kids because I'm sick from walking around the marsh lands all night and from the general weekend (everybody else is sick too).

Now I'm just relaxing listening to some musiccc.

Good day.

Fuck yeah

School is not an option today, well not right this second maybe later.
I caught up on my sleep last night missing 5 calls on my cell and a couple of messages but it was worth it.
I still don't feel 100% here and wouldn't risk going to school.

Later today when Luke gets up we are going to try find my wallet (don't ask) If that fails I can get money tomorrow from the bankbankbank.

Trying to catch up on school work is failing as I keep finding myself more caught up with the dub step playing in the background.

Mindfucked, talk to you laterrrr.

:)

Mush

That was the craziest weekend of my life.

Wow

A class
And it just blew my mind.

10 hours or so

If all goes well tonight will be one of the best nights of my life.

Drunk and High

These are the days to remember forever.

Yep... haha

Spoon

We found a new kinda dance in a magazine
Try it on, it's like nothin' you've ever seen
You sweet talk like a cop, an' you know it
You bought a new bag of pot
So let's make a new start
And that's the way to my heart to
Way to my heart

Ihavechangedlotsandlots

I am actually so happy.

I have been hanging with a lot of new people, this excites me. I'm glad I have changed, grown up and figured out what and where I want to go in life ect.

Happyhappyhappyhappy.

:D

Cuties

Today was lovely, a Wednesday spent well :)

I have a feeling we are going to get to know each other a lot better m'dear.

Hope everybody had a nice day :D

You are the only exception

Beautiful day :)

You make me blush

I'm also the happiest I have been in about 5 months

Grumpy Face

I hate hickeys and stupid E-hows to get rid of them that don't work.

Young and dumb just the way I like it

Last night was a good way to end the holidays, apart from getting Josh a $400 fine because Luke hadn't has his full for two years (he should of been driving with passengers or smoking pot while driving) and getting half a tin taken off us (we managed to hide an ounce in the glove box) it was pretty perfect, in a really drunk way.

I'm having quite drinks at mine tonight, rents are up north for a wedding.

Hope you had good holidays see you suckers on Monday

<3

Stars, rain and city lights

Beautiful night.

The hills are really quite stunning at night.

Love

Drunk minds

Speak sober hearts

You know you can tell a lot by the contents of somebody's hand bag!

-Make up bag.... I'm such a girl

-Little blue light.... Ryan's I think

-My purple cone

-Blueberry lip sorbet

-Dove Essential Nutrients

-Wallet

-Charm off my broken necklace

-Nivea Caregloss

-Dove Silk Dry deodorant

-Hair clip

-Hair ties

-Pens

-Band-Aid

-Keys + Rape-alarm

-Hair brush

-Addi's cone... His parents found it and he is worried they are going to take it from him

-Calivin Klein perfume

-Nivea Passion Fruits

No more pain

One good thing about music, when it hits you,
you feel no pain.

Love story

You know we have a connection you admit it yourself and I am happy for you I swear but knowing that you will soon be far away hurts.

You are living your dreams, standing on your own two feet, finding your place in the world with the girl you love, not that anybody else knows this.

We are really rather close friends and I'm going to miss you... A lot but thats not why I'm so upset.

I'm upset because you told me not to tell anybody, you may not realize this but me not being able to tell anybody means I have to deal with this shock alone.

How do you think your other friends are going to take it when you just leave with her?

I love you and I really hope you find what you are looking for.

Please write, or text, or ring, or whatever.

Good luck.

Denial

Lonesome for no one when

The room was empty and

War as we knew it was obsolete

Nothing could beat denial

NHjmbdmlkKmb

Can't stop thinking about youuuuuuuuuu

but I don't mind

:D

Boy, you make me smile

I know you always complement me but what you said really meant a lot.
I just wish you would take one back.
:)

I will...

Today is going to be proactive.

I'm going to study for exams :)

Wish me luck.

Love love love

Oh, well, in five years time we could be walking round the zoo
With the sun shining down in every me and you

And there’ll be love in the bodys of the elephants tool
I’ll put my hands of your eyes, but you pick throught

And there’ll be sun, sun, sun
All over our bodys.
And sun, sun, sun
I’ll die in next
There’ll be sun, sun, sun
All over our faces
And sun, sun, sun
So, what the hell

‘cause i’ll be laughing around your silly little jokes
And we’ll be laughing about how we use to smoke
All those stupid little cigarretes and drinks to put wine
‘cause it’s what we need to have good times

But it was fun, fun, fun
When we were drinking.
It was fun, fun, fun
When we were drunk
And it was fun, fun, fun
When we were laughing
It was fun, fun, fun
Oh, it was fun.

Oh, well, i look while you’re saying: “it’s the happiest that i’ve ever been”
And i’ll say: “i love to feel that i have to be james dean”
And you say: “yeah, and i feel a pretty happy too, and i’m always pretty happy when i’m just thinking about with you”

And will be love, love, love
Love throught our bodys.
Love, love, love
All throught our minds
And will be love, love, love
All over her face
And love, love, love
All over our minds.

And i’ll remember all these moments suggesting my head
I’ll be thinking about then and there’s lying in bed
And i know that you believe that might not keeping come through
But in my mind i’m having a pretty time with you

Five years time
I might not know it
Five years time
We might not speak
And five years time
We might not care about
Five years time
We might to prove it along

Oh, there’ll be love, love, love
Wherever you go
There’ll be love, love, love

Shit

I feel like death deep fried tripping on some crazy drugs.

But I'm not complaining, as this is how I know the Holidays have began.

Pain and Suffering

I went outside for a coffee and a cigarette

I saw a pregnant spider and freaked, so I killed her with fly-spray

Then I felt horrible.

How much would It hurt to be carrying your young then to know you were dying and so were your children?

:?

Double choc-chip muffins with strawberry icing!

Tomorrow is going to be a good day I have bloody 36 muffins I just made :):):):)

Muffins and prom with the most beautiful girl.

It is going to be the best start of the holidays ever.

Might, maybe, possibly

MOVVVVVE!
TOOOOOO!
GOLDCOAST!
AUSTRALIA!
O.0

I love you too

Not that I need to tell you this.

Looking forward to dinner, cheap wine and prom on friday!

It was weird not seeing you last weekend.

<3>

You are one of the two people I tell everything and who I can be 100% myself around. We are so alike it is strange... The good kind of spieg strange not the pedo strange.

Wednesday

I had a pretty perfect day.

Ate soo much food that Kasey and Troy kindly bought.

The Gardens were really beautiful today before the rain began to bucket.

IEP was really good Andre and my Mum got on.

Tomorrow will be just as good.

:) :) :)

sorry

ha

You are pretty fucking lame girl and finally I'm done with the way you treat me
I just don't like you
Cya.

One request

You asked me not to break his heart.

Forever ago

I remember when I didn't get hangovers.
Life was good.

Friendly fires:

All I need

I am the next act waiting in the wings
I am an animal trapped in your hot car
I am all the days that you choose to ignore

You are all I need
You are all I need
I am in the middle of your picture
Lying in the reeds

I am a moth who just wants to share your light
I�m just an insect trying to get out of the night
I only stick with you because there are no others

You are all I need
You are all I need
I am in the middle of your picture
Lying in the reeds

It's all wrong
It's all right
It's all right
It's all wrong
It's all right
It's all right
It's all right

It is good to know when and where.

Last night was lovely drank(a little too much) with the boys, listened to Ryan's old mix CDs which was good for a laugh plus I got to know somebody who I had never really talked to.
But wait! It gets better, tonight I'm staying at Craig's! I do really miss him.

But In the meantime I will drink my weight in aloe juice and try get over the hangover that is having a party in my skull.

Blah blah blah I'll leave you to get back to your own exciting plans, have a beautiful weekend my friends (:

Because you are beautiful, all of you

Just the smell of the spring can make me fall in love

Love is everywhere

Think before you do

Yeah I'm not going to lie it did upset me and I think it only upset me because I wouldn't do that to you.

How much do I mean to you?

I think you should show me sometime because I haven't seen it in awhile.

Thanks

One Chance

My friends, my habits, my family,
they mean so much to me.
I just don't think that it's right.
I've seen so many ships sail in,
just to head back out again and go off sinking.

And how could you not love this? (my and Ryan's song)

ce-age heat wave, can't complain.
If the world's at large, why should I remain?
Walked away to another plan.
Gonna find another place, maybe one I can stand.
I move on to another day,
to a whole new town with a whole new way.
Went to the porch to have a thought.
Got to the door and again, I couldn't stop.
You don't know where and you don't know when.
But you still got your words and you got your friends.
Walk along to another day.
Work a little harder, work another way.

Well uh-uh baby I ain't got no plan.
We'll float on maybe would you understand?
Gonna float on maybe would you understand?
Well float on maybe would you understand?

The days get shorter and the nights get cold.
I like the autumn but this place is getting old.
I pack up my belongings and I head for the coast.
It might not be a lot but I feel like I'm making the most.
The days get longer and the nights smell green.
I guess it's not surprising but it's spring and I should leave.

I like songs about drifters - books about the same.
They both seem to make me feel a little less insane.
Walked on off to another spot.
I still haven't gotten anywhere that I want.
Did I want love? Did I need to know?
Why does it always feel like I'm caught in an undertow?

The moths beat themselves to death against the lights.
Adding their breeze to the summer nights.
Outside, water like air was great.
I didn't know what I had that day.
Walk a little farther to another plan.
You said that you did, but you didn't understand.

I know that starting over is not what life's about.
But my thoughts were so loud I couldn't hear my mouth.
My thoughts were so loud I couldn't hear my mouth.
My thoughts were so loud.

Is it just lust?

Well It made me think.

Today started slow, english was boring as I had already seen The Dark Night a few times before but after we watched the stupid scene where the Joker makes a pencil disappear by lodging it until some guys skull the day started to show signs of hope. I went for a sneaky smoke and then headed to the river and got lots of writing done, until Ryan text me.

I hung-out with my Ry-ry and his friends for the rest of the day which I probably shouldn't of as I lost track of time and was late to health, sorry Franfran. School finished and I went home and watched a few movies I had got out over the weekend but never got around to watching and now I'm downloading even more Modest Mouse :).

Today was a good day.

Only skin deep

Beautiful

Sunshine, sunshine.

Beautiful, beautiful day and I'm sure it will be an even better night :)

Day five of seven

Fruit and vegetable detox.

Man being vegan sucks.

Half over nowww

99.9% sure

But it never killed anybody to play pretend.

Day four of seven

The fruit and vegetable detox.

I weighed myself today and fully clothed I have lost my goal amount in just four days :).
Plus I feel really good.

I am not a bad girlfriend

Last night you text me at 1:05am saying that you had read over our old msn conversations and you said "I was a controlling, dogmatic cunt with compete lack of sense" and that if you had been me you would of told you to "fuck off".
Now I must admit that it made me feel like screaming I told you so but I didn't, maybe I should of.

I am

H
U
N
G
O
V
E
R

Day three of seven

Fruit and vegetable detox.

Fact.

The people I surround myself with are rather amazing (:

Day two of seven

Fruit and Vegetable detox.

I feel good!

Morning beautiful

Sleep, smoke, eat and sleep some more.

Time to wake up.

Day one of seven

Fruit and vegetable detox.

.

Tonight it is just me Grizzly bear and a lonely spliff oh and of course Bandito.

Love

Love is the harmony
Desire is the key
Love is the melody
Now sing it with me

Growing up

I was awoken to your alarm as you skittered around saying something about work, we went outside for a smoke and I made you a coffee before having to walk you to the orbiter stop.

Responsibilities

Responsibilities

Responsibilities

Responsibilities

Responsibilities

Happy 18th m'dear

Tonight Is going to be drunk

Yeah so what now?

Think

Think

Think

Question

Question

Question

Love

Love

Love

You

You

You

.

Art gallery

This painting is really very good but only because it loves you and is proud of everything you have achieved so far and it cant wait to see what you'll do next. Its been hovering over you with the sparrows and dust and oxygen molecules your whole life. It has watched in awe while you were courageous and brave and kind when necessary even when its difficult. It has seen yoou reach the outer limits of yourself and watched in wondrous amazement as you fell from the greatest of heights loving you all the more. This painting pines for your love in return. Not in that desperate needy way but in the way you want to be pined for, like the wind for the clouds. Sadly I am the only one who can know this because of my unfortunate ability to see such things. Others will fail to see what I have. Time to observe, because as you know I will outline them and the seems unsure and distant. But still, I suppose all is not lost at least we'll always have each other.

Bandito

Off ice caving

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Ryan

Capricon

So this is who I am...

I'm young rather young actually people always seem so surprised when I tell them my age I never really got why.

I'm a pessimistic person which is something I could work on but I have always been this way and I never seem to get as let down when something doesn't go my way.

I'm pretty patient when it comes to waiting for something/somebody but I'm a lot less patient when somebody is messing me around.

I'm a grudging person and when somebody hurts me I tend to never forgive them.

I'm a fatalistic I accept that all events are inevitable but many people don't share this belief with me.

I have a few main people in my life that I love and would do anything for but I have a lot more people in my life that I just care for.

I enjoy smoking quite a bit and unless it starts to effect my health I'm happy.

I love music and my room feels empty without it. I have a couple of main bands that I will never get over and then I have bands that I like for a month or two then get over.

I love my family more than anything in the world. I couldn't live without my brothers or my parents, I wouldn't trade how close we all are for anything.

I love nature and I am constantly appreciating it.

I don't believe that humans can be 100% straight.

I am a nice person you should give me a chance as I am not a judging person.

I find personality the most attractive thing in a person.

Anyway I'm boring well done for getting this far :D

I love my brother so much

I love Ric.
It is really is stupid how much I look up to him.
He is so unreliable not to mention the fact that he is always wasted.
I really should tell him how much I care more often.
Meh thanks big bro for all the treats.

And it's fucked up

What will grow quickly, that you can't make straight
It's the price you gotta pay
Do yourself a favour and pack you bags
Buy a ticket and get on the train
Buy a ticket and get on the train

Cause this is fucked up, fucked up
Cause this is fucked up, fucked up

People get crushed like biscuit crumbs
And laid down in the bed you made
You have tried your best to please everyone
But it just isn't happening
No, it just isn't happening

And it's fucked up, fucked up
And this is fucked up, fucked up
This your blind spot, blind spot
It should be obvious, but it's not.
But it isn't, but it isn't

You cannot kickstart a dead horse
You just crush yourself and walk away
I don't care what the future holds
Cause I'm right here in your arms today
With your fingers you can touch me

I'm your black swan, black swan
But I made it to the top, made it to the top
This is fucked up, fucked up

You are fucked up, fucked up
This is fucked up, fucked up

Be your black swan, black swan
I'm for spare parts, broken up

A much needed treat.

Good morning Spring.

Boring

Dull, monotonous, repetitive, unrelieved, unvaried, unimaginative, uneventful; characterless, featureless, colorless, lifeless, insipid, uninteresting, unexciting, uninspiring, unstimulating; unreadable, unwatchable; jejune, flat, bland, dry, stale, tired, banal, lackluster, stodgy, vapid, monochrome, dreary, humdrum, mundane; mind-numbing, wearisome, tiring, tiresome, irksome, trying, frustrating; informal deadly, ho-hum, dullsville, dull as dishwater, plain-vanilla.

Rain rain

Rain rain go away,
Come again another day

This is me

Fire it up. Fire it up.
When we finally turn it over,
make a beeline towards the border,
have a drink, you've had enough.

Fire it up. Fire it up.
If you need some conversation
bring a magazine to read
around our broke down transportation.

Fire it up.
Is there enough?

Fire it up. Fire it up.
When we find the perfect water,
we'll hang out on the shore just,
just long enough to leave our clothes there.

Fine enough. Fine enough.
Oh we ate all of the oranges
off the navels of our lovers,
grabbed a book and read the cover.

It honestly was beautifully done.
like trying to hide the daylight from the sun.
Even if we had been sure enough
it's true we really didn't know.
Even if we knew which way to head,
but still we probably wouldn't go.

Fire it up. Fire it up.
We push off we are rolling boulders,
crashing down the mirrored stairways.
Two of life's best mine canaries.

Fire it up. Fire it up.
When we fix the carburetor,
then we'll push off once again
in an hour or so later.

It honestly was beautifully bold.
Like trying to save an ice cube from the cold.
Even if we had been sure enough,
it's true we really didn't know.
Even if we knew which way to head,
but still we probably wouldn't go.

Well we always had it all.

See you tomorrow.

Cuts and bruises

Covered in cuts and bruises lots and lots of cuts and bruises we walk off into the sunrise...
Beautiful, Beautiful weekend.

My future

I hope when I'm older I wont have blogspot or bebo, I hope that I will be far too busy to worry about friend requests or play-counts. I will soon have a job and more work to do, I will soon be on here less and less.
Fingers crossed this is sooner rather than later.

Hurray for sunshine and best-friends

It was another beautiful day today.
I'm very tired interviewing the new kids was entertaining.
Friday tomorrow! Can't wait!

<3

Never take for ganted

My parents are lovely.
I thought I was getting a car for my birthday turns outs they are buying me one now... Sucks I can't learn to drive yet... Meh I'm grateful anyway even though it will be a rustbucket because it will be my rustbucet and I will love it very much <3

My friends are pretty RoCkIn

Just because we are cool... Not really
Nahh Love you guys :D

PS you better laugh at this stupid video as it took 5 years to upload ;}

Magic?

In just a T and a skirt now I know Spring is well near.
Today was nice, I can't remember the last time I had a bad day they all seem to be pretty dam perfect.
It's magic.

They call me Kit.

I'm tired and hungover last night was nice we drank and talked and talked and talked.
I WILL marry Soko! She is amazing, perfect!
Tomorrow Ill buy a chia latte and then go to the gym, fingers crossed the weather is nice.
Happyness.

Lost

I will get drunk tonight off wine and ill think of you.
God Jayne I need you more than you think, now would be a good time for you to take me farfarfar away.

To do list

-Get job
-Get car
-Learn to drive
-Get learners
-Get fit
-Eat healthy
-Grow hair

Tonight yes

Miche: The love interest
Sam: The innocent one
Grace: Sex appeal

Its been along time coming

School today!
I feel rested and ready to take on the world!

The sky is blue and goes on forever.

I'm sorry for being a post whore but I felt it would be rude not to metion how beautiful today is...

Sitting outside taking in the fresh but not so crisp air and the first monarch butterfly of the season fluttered past and for some reason or another it filled me with happiness knowing Spring is just around the corner.

The grass is for once greener on my side not the other.

Healthy eating is a lifestyle.

This week I really have put my healthy eating into action paired with going to the gym I shall get sick less, keep on-top of my Crohns and be in better moods.

Anticipation Anticipation Anticipation Anticipation Anticipation Anticipation Anticipation Anticipation Anticipation Anticipation Anticipation Anticipation Anticipation Anticipation Anticipation Anticipation Anticipation Anticipation Anticipation Anticipation Anticipation

My BabyLove

Turn you head to see my baby...
Thank god for unconditional love.

Mirror mirror

What do you see when you look in the mirror?

family secrets

Sometimes finding something out about somebody you love and thought you knew isn't always the best. I used to think that knowing everything about somebody was normal but today I stumbled across something I wish I hadn't a very well kept secret...
I hope that it wont change anything, I hope I can still look at them the same...
Have you ever thought you knew somebody but really didn't have a clue?

How do I ask somebody as perfect as you to me mine?

Running

You have decided that this being in my head every now and then isn't enough as it seems you are always there.

...

Girl you're in my head and I don't think you plan on leaving any time soon...
Should I think about you like this...

Exception.
I have found that I can be 100% content with what I have been given.
Even if I know it will never be perfect I'm happy and that is all that matters.

You

Girl are my life.
Without you I would be nothing.
I love you so much more than I have ever loved another person.
Please never leave my side.

Take me away

;D

Beautiful weekend with beautiful people!
It was nice to let off some steam before going into hospital tomorrow which I am no longer worried about I mean its not like it is my first time for treatment haha.
Hope everybody has a nice week at school and you should all come visit me!

Finally

I took out the picture in this post as my lip looked so swollen and now looks much nicer! C:

Whoever said that getting your monroe doesn't hurt is a crazy loon.
It has a huge bar in it to leave room for swelling but in a few weeks ill change it and all will be well.
<3

Going to get my Monroe done.
EEEEEEEEP

I have to make the most of this weekend, treatment starts on Monday.
Worst thing is they took me off the pills that give you crazy dreams :(.
Wish me luck.

I haven't blogged in ages, I think it is because I have been so busy.
Life has been rather eventful lately :)
I have been surrounding myself with amazing people and I honestly haven't been down in what seems like forever this I am very grateful for.
Life is beautiful and I know I have said many times before but I wish more people could really see it.
I don't have much more to say other than that.
I hope everybody can start to see the beauty around us.
Yay Spring is near <3

Just love

I forgot

How good it felt to get lost in a book.
I just put it down after two hours of my eyes being glued to the pages of my favorite author.
I must read more often I feel refreshed, nun night.

something big and beautiful is going to happen to me says my horoscopes and I would really like to believe it but I have been having a lot of good luck these past few months so would that really be okay?
I have my fingers crossed.

As Winter melts into Spring any doubts that I once had about myself vanish.
=]

Sunshine

With the towel still rapped around me I stood outside and watched the birds fly in the distance, the sun just peking over the golden clouds with 'The Lucky One' playing in the background.
I was right today is going to be a good day.

A dream of togetherness
Turned into a brighter mess
A faint sign my spoken best
Now, now

Make way for the simple hours
No finding the time its ours
A fate or it's a desire
I know

So I was the lycky one
Reading letters, not writing them
Taking pictures of anyone
I know

So let the sunshine
So let the sunshine
So let the sunshine let it come
To show us that tomorrow is eventual
We know it when the day is done

You know who you are

You are my everything.
I love you so much and I always will.
I'm pretty sure you are the most beautiful girl on this planet and I don't even have to see all the rest to know.
Together forever yes?
xoxo Gossip Girl I mean Kate jwdjkhskhnlkxcn ILY

Today is the day.

Last night was fantastic but today will be the day.
The morning after a storm is always so beautiful and I'm making the most of it, with legs out the window and a coffee in my hand listening to Modest Mouse waiting for the others to wake.
I know who I am and I now know who I want to be.
Life is pretty fucking sweet, it always has been I just hadn't really opened my eyes even though I thought I had.

Leave me be

I wish you would get out of my head.
I don't remember my dreams but last night I remembered your face sitting beside me.
I also remember if you hadn't been giving me smokes I would of left.
Hahah I don't even like you in my dreams how sad.

Holidays over.

Trying to relax is hard when you have been out every night.
I have lit some candles and read my book but my mind keeps racing.
I'm craving coffee but I know that wont help.
Looks like ill just have to keep my head held high and keep on going like I have the last two weeks.
I have changed lots these few weeks, I am much more dependent.
Much more strong.
Fuck summer Ill pass for spring right now.
Nun night.

Tired

Haha road trips are nice even if it is only a short trip to try find the free rave.

I can't wait to be asleep in my bed with my new incenses burning, taking all my worries with the smoke.
I'm sick of looking dead and not knowing what it is like to feel well rested. Soon all my small problems will be over and ill be sitting on the 48 past bus on the way to school listening to my ipod and most likely thinking of all the things to do next holidays.

I had fun but now it is time to go back.

It was nice sleeping on the roof with only two duvets and a pillow, looking at the stars with you all night.
I didn't think I would ever find a guy that would make me feel special again until now, having somebody to get excited about waking up in the morning is doing me well. I'm still not sure if I'm glad that you told me that you liked me or not.


I really haven't been sober for more than 12hours these holidays don't quite know if this is a good thing yet. ;)

:7

LSD was nice. Hard to explain but nice.

Come back my friend

Ryan's back tomorrow and I thought my holidays couldn't get any better.
I missed you my dearest.

Oh la la

Freedom oh sweet freedom.
How I love you.
I have been a very busy bee these holidays not being bored for more than a minute.
Seeing the smiles on your perfect faces make me forget all my fears about the future.
My poor lungs, my broken heart, my abused brain my aching liver. None of these matter.
Living for here and now.
Loving forever.

Drunka and high thats not a lie

Waiting for you.

Summer my old friend.

Happy

I'm happy.
I'm hungover.
I'm tired.
Life is good.

Thank you Kasey the drinks were great and your house is beautiful!
<3

Scott's drinks

I had fun last night.
Got far too drunk but thankfully Dylan looked after me the whole night :).
Kasey's Drinks tonight should be fun.
HOLIDAYS <3

New me

The gym is great I some how spent two and a half hours there today and I feel amazing.
Everybody there is so nice and caring!!!!!
I'm so glad I decided to join.

Nicenes

Today I bought some really amazing tops :)
One was white with a dazed looking hippy girl on it.
Two was a baggy purple T with a dream catcher on it.
Three was a T-shirt dress with two really detailed birds on it :).
Finally my wardrobe is normal size, it took ages to build up all the clothes I chucked last time.

My blog at this moment

I'm going to re-do my blog as it is boring and pointless, I'm going to make it easier on the eyes and full of interesting content.
:) I wish myself luck.

It's true she says

I have been thinking a lot lately, about the people and things in my life.
I have realized that I am very lucky in many ways not just in the material possessions I own but with the few people I really choose to let in.
I have also been thinking about life a lot, what I want to become, how I want my children to become and I have concluded that I really don't give myself enough credit for the way I have turned out.
I'm getting over my fear of people not liking me as I have been seeing more faults in the people I have been choosing to hangout with and decided to pick the people I choose to socialize with more carefully so I don't hurt them when I decide I no longer want to hang around with them.
So I will no longer be made felt small or self conscious by the immature people in my growing smaller social group.
I would much rather have a small group of friends that I truly love and trust with my life than a large group of lots of neutral friends that don't really mind if they lived without me.
I have done a really good job this year of growing up and realizing my potential and I am determined to keep these changes and continue to grow as a person.

Today

Ah new music!
Thom gave me 2 and a half days worth of music.
I'm going to be busy!

Thank god

For being in Andre's homebase!
Time for a change.

The song you wrote for me <3

Kate, I am stoned off my ass !
Kate, you send me soaring, oh so fast !
Kate,was that you I see flying past !
Man the sails! Climb the mast !
Why the fuck am I singing into this glass? (I was singing into a glass)

Kate, you are a mate to me !
Kate, you forgive me being late, gee !
Kate, would you considering dating me?
Kate, even if I were a but a little bee?
Kate, won't you come and climb a tree?
Where we could count to three..
Oh, so many stars we'd see..

Kate, I am stoned off my tits !
Kate, you stop me getting burnt like oven mits !
Kate, You pick me up when I fall in the pits !
Kate, even if you were a ditz !
Kate, I'd still laa' you to bitz !
Here's where I start reppin' britz..
Cos you blow me away like the blitz..

Kate, you are a mate to me !
Kate, you forgive me being late, gee !
Kate, will you consider dating me?
Kate, even if I were a but a little bee?
Kate, won't you come and climb a tree?
Where we could count to three..
Oh, so many stars we'd see..

Kate, you are T I A !
Kate, wish to be with you and let that time just stay !
Kate, like wow, sure am glad you came and said hey !
On that cold, cold, cold, cold fucking day !
Kate, when I was stoned and brought McD's with my pay !
Kate, there is this cool song by Bob Dylan called Lay Lady, Lay !
Kate, when's your birthday is it in the month of May?
Kate, it's not but holy shit, that would be gay !
Kate, then I'd have missed your birthday !
Shit, shit ! I am running out of words to say !
Kate, it's hard to rythym with words, eh?
Kate, this verse isn't applicable to the song, nay !

Kate, you are a mate to me !
Kate, you forgive me being late, gee !
Kate, would you considering dating me?
Kate, even if I were a but a little bee?
Kate, won't you come and climb a tree?
Where we could count to three..
Oh, so many stars we'd see..
So many fuckin' stars we'd see..
Let's put a boat to sea..
On which we could live and love and be..

My friday night ::)

It was nice to see an old friend and make new memories.
Even if it upset a few people that don't like to share....
There will always be a place in my heart for you.

Naww!

I logged into bebo to find some beautiful comments!

"you shine bright sunshine =]"

And

"oh Kate,
oh Kate,
I truly am so sorry,
but it was fate,
that kept me late,
from all those dates.
But you will forgive me,
cos you are a mate!"

Thank you sweeties made my night!

Just what I needed

A great day!
Just what the doctor ordered!

It hurts

Just to know you could of always done better than me, everyone knows it.

;)

I should be an actress.
As my acts are believed.

:D

Dog show today and mischa got 1st place in her class!
I also got sims 3

how much is too much

Haha the gig was good even if I slept through it...
Thanks to Megan for waking me up or I would most likely still be asleep in my own vomit.
Good times good times.
;)

Lift Plus

Today was nice, the warmest day in awhile which is sad because it wasn't very warm at all.
No Jack tomorrow, I think I'll just hide behind my laptop all day looking at all the pretty people on LookBook :D
What a life.

No more split ends

My hair is in really good condition for the first time in ages.
I'm in a good mood, happy happy happy.

Yes sir

10 months today

twas nice.

I wasn't in the best mood last night but I still had a blast
and and and I still have just under half a bottle of gin, score!
School tomorrow :)
funfunfunfunfunfunfunfunfufnfukhfjfjk

True much

It's sad when people you know become people you knew, when you can walk right past someone like they were never a
big part of your life, how you used to be able to talk for hours and know now you can barley look at them.
Its sad how things change.

Last night

Its a blur of Christchurch music, dancing, drinking and meeting new people. I must say it was amazing but I know that tonight will be even better!
<3

People

This weekend is going to be nice.
On Friday I will hang with Thom and go see Sandfly Bay play, even though they are over priced, afterwards ill go back to Jack's.
Saturday I'm drinking with Alex and Jack in Sumner. Just like the good old days it's a shame it's going to be freezing.
Last and least Sunday I will sleep off the drink and relax : D.

I love Yssie.

Not the best of days

My hair straightener died (Everybody told me my hair looked nice 0.o)
My laptop is one point of a model too crappy to play sims 3 (I just updated it and now it is all good : D)
I look disgustingx10000000000 (So I went home and had a shower)
I have had three hours sleep (I bought a Lift Plus and a Mother)
Tomorrow will be better and I did get my camera back with new battery
Noted that I can turn bad things into good :)

Love

My wasted brother and his beautiful son

:3

Everything is nice at the moment. I have been getting lots of work done. I seem to be able to balance my social life with my school life quite well, its good to know I can work as well as play without having to choose one over the other.
All is well.
I love my family so much.
(in photo one my brother Lance and his daughter and Caleb. In photo two me and Nekera)

Acount

Friday: Stayed at Jack's got fly sprayed and talked to myself lots...
Saturday: Kelly's party didn't enjoy it too much...
Sunday: Jimmy's flatwarming was a-maz-ing...
Monday: went shopping :)

: D

Awesome weekend!
I'm in a good place.

Party

I love this weekend!
Lots of parties to go to.
: D its going to be a fucking amazing weekend.

Hahahaahahaha

I invited myself ae?
nice.

I enjoyed hanging out with you two but I still think we should got to the cat show.

hmm

Got all my work done today and I feel really good!
Made pancakes omnomnom.

You have changed, why?
It's sad.

School

I'm not a failure this year!
Getting so much work done, gosh NCEA is cake!
I'm proud of myself for once.

Will I ever find my way of of this labyrinth

Haha

You sure proved your maturity.
Grow up.

Why

Why can't I be friends with somebody you like?
We have meet twice I know nothing about him.
Isn't it obvious that I'm not looking for somebody right now?
You are insane.

Drum solo

I danced the night away playing my air guitar and hitting on my drums. The night was slow at first but soon was over with the sound of thought creature in my ears. I headed back to Sumner. I drank until all I wanted was sleep. I woke with some sort of cold as usual sick again.

Niiiight

The night has crept... It is a beautiful night.... I'm with a beautiful girl..... With a beautiful room around us.... With a beautiful life...

Today

I made the best vegan pizza while I spend half the day hanging at home not wanting to face school. Waiting for the day light to creep away taking my problems with it only leaving the good times and sweet people.

Teachers only days

Are fun.
Waiting for Friday for Grace to stay
Waiting for RyRy to have his 16th
Waiting for myself to make my mind up about hin
Waiting for the summer
Waiting for a better place
Waiting to be free of this world.

Today

It sure was nice.

Its true!

My life is like a film I swear its not the drugs.

Weekend

I have the best pot I have ever seen, thanks Ric
I bought a cone and its purple
Mum dragged me bra shopping and I'm now a bloody E
I have eaten so much this weekend I swear I'm waddling
I bought this really nice green eye shadow
Hung out with Jack for the last week none stop its nice
Need to tidy my room haven't done that today
And buy film for my camera
<3

:)

You now kiss me sober and say I love you back...

O.0

We kissed long and passionate....
Did it mean something to you?
If it didn't why didn't you stop...
Was it just because we were high?
If you didn't like it you would of only kissed my once...
You have left me with high hopes and empty emotion.

GnKUHJHGJHKJkhghhh

You said you want to think before you know if you want a relationship with me...
I wonder how long it will take.
It's hard for me to sit here and wait.
Hold on to what hope I have left.
I love you

rtyuijopnkm;l

Well he is going with his head not his heart.
But he said he still adores me :/
Hmm time to move on.

Tehehe

Maybe there is hope!
I love how it is now a game to see if i can get you back!
Fuck that phone call was epic hahahhahah i love you.

:/

I told you how I feel.
I want to give you my all.
I can hardly see the computer screen my tears making the world seem so fuzzy.
You have my heart.
I can't take it back I feel like it has become apart of you.

Last night

Rave
Pills
More pills
Dance
High
Bus
Home
high
No sleep
Mothers day
Still high.

Morning :)

I woke up bright and early and turned on some Bright Eyes. I opened my window to let in the fresh air and I just know it's going to be a really good night. My sleep-out looks so much bigger when I let the light in haha.
Blood test today, god crohns is a bitch ahahh.

OH GOD

HAHAHHA I just found this Vid xD

Today

Was amazing! I feel bad for making people upset because how close me and Megan have become. Its just I feel I can be myself around her, thats it.
Seeing my brother was good we talked about growing up and drugs... I now wont have to worry about how to get them hahah.
Tomorrow is going to be even better, going to drop some pills and dance the night away weeeeee then Mags will come back to mine : D.

You.

I like you...
But do you know it?
:/

My msn to Jack lol

[21:20:22] Kate :) says:
I miss saying my 'get it' jokes I miss having funny sex I miss play fighting I miss staying at yours I miss your mum being drunk I miss your smell I miss your cat I miss your toast I miss sumner I miss holding your hand I miss having showers with you I miss our seshs I miss wearing your clothes I miss being on your bebo I miss everyone wanting what we have I miss your kisses I miss your sister I miss frozen cokes and purple straws I miss our shopping trips I miss your lopsided smile I miss your morning texts I miss you walking me home at night I miss skating with you I miss going to parties with you I just miss you

Things you may or may not know

-It's 7:34pm
-I have low self esteem
-I was vegetarian for three years
-I had my first crush on a girl when I was 11
-I'm not over my ex and not scared to admit it
-I love meeting new people
-I hate people hating me
-My lucky number is nine
-I have crohns disease
-I drink around four cups of coffee a day
-I'm an aunty four times
-I'm a clean freak
-I tidy my room everyday
-I wash my hair everyday
-I love animals
-I feel the cold and have to keep my room warm with two heaters
-I don't have any hobbies
-I like someone I cant have
-I do tarot cards
-I'm a Capricorn
-I used to think I could turn into a cat
-I used to think I was a witch
-I used to think Marilyn Manson was really hot
-My second toe isn't longer than my first
-My thumbs are so skinny they look like fingers
-They don't make my bra size, my back is too narrow
-I live in a sleep-out
-My favorite colour is purple
-I want a nose job
-My eyes always change colour
-I suck my tongue when I'm relaxed
-I can keep secrets
-I could keep going forever.

My day

Today was lovely.
I drank lots of coffee and went to all my classes.
After school was really nice to hang out with new people and of course some old ones.
I need to hangout with Mags and Brittany more I feel like I can really be myself around them and they wouldn't judge :).
Ehehhe there was this pedo on the shuttle he was like o.0.
I seem to be finding small things such as getting a nice text or just listening to a good song on my ipod really uplifting.
Looking forward to the rave on Saturday lol and seeing my brother tomorrow night will be nice.

Today

Today was fun
Me and Mags hung out all day
Went back to mine and got happy
My room smells now

Morning :)

Didn't get much sleep last night. Instead I sat up looking through my memory box... It always makes me think and I did a tarot reading after that it was about 1 and I made myself find sleep.
This morning has been nice, its not very cold for once :)
Hope I have a good day : D

Cubin dear

He gave me a poem he wrote about our relationship its sad but true.

Utter perfection,
Seemingly resolute beauty.
Nothing could distort this, surely,
This utopian relationship between two.

Gradually, changes begin to occur,
Imperceptible to the watcher.
But as time passes by,
This constant inescapable shift begins to show itself.

Nothing will halt its progress
The wheels of change, set in motion.
Soon all the splendor there once was,
Will be a mere memory.

Hahahah Ill stop posting I swear

But I have to say....
My hair is getting long long long
Ehhhhhhhh yay no more dyke hair!

Reinvented

After Jack I was messed up I mean I loved him. What I should of done is try move on and not take it too personally but what I did was become someone else. I was someone slutty and gross someone I no longer like so I have told them to move out and leave old Kate alone to stand on her own, find her own feet in this big messed up world and you know what? I'm doing just fine :)
I just have to remember to stay true to myself and that I can do just fine on my own.
I will keep on smiling.
: D

You.

I think you are beautiful.
I think you are cute.
I think you are sweet.
I think you are kind.
I know you are hurt.
I know you don't like me.
I know I miss you.
I know I want you.
And I know I would treat you right.
How I wish you could see the potential, the potential of you and me.
Its like a book elegantly bound but in a language that you can't read, just yet.

WERTCYVBUINMO<

After all of last night waiting for school it was a real let down :/ maybe i should stop getting excited about things.
Ryan and Nick caught my bus in the morning and we all go coffee, that was nice.
I like a girl....
She is beautiful....
;)

Guess what?

I'm back!
Couldn't stay away now I'm not just bored but hungry haha and Mother took the bread out of my room -___-
RAWR msn is kinda entertaining me but still kinda failing at the same time haha.
God it is only 11:29 how time ticks by so slowly.
I should just suck it up and go to sleep haha.
NIGHT!

I'm bored

I know I should sleep but my mind is wide awake, my eyes are trying to shut but the light in my head burns to bright so I continue to aimlessly text a drunk Ryan and blog. I want tomorrow to come faster so I have something to do haha. I want to see Yssie after reading though her blog It made me miss her, she is so cute ^.^.
What to do? What to do?
Ill give msn a shot.
As Ryan's messages get harder to read I get more restless.
OH! Now Michelle is texting, she can join the sleepless party.
Even Mischa has been asleep for hours.
I have now looked though all my photos from the weekend hahah look how red my eyes are ;}
I should end this blog but then I know I will just be writing another post in about half an hour :/.
Kate needs... A lover... Hmmm o.0
End?

Blah

I changed up the look of my blog.. Fun stuff.
I'm looking forward to school tomorrow and I don't know why :) I'm enjoying life at the moment and It's nice not to be all emo about everything, now lets see how fast that can change.
They say you always love your first love I really hope this isn't true as I don't think I could handle that hahah.
I'm texting Ryan, he makes me smile... Good old drunken Ryry.
I miss (you) the holidays.
Yayyayya I saved just enough money for a coffee tomorrow morning so I get to see my coffee guy wooopee

The weekend...

Wow what a party tehe.

Friday: Beth and I stayed at Natalie's and got just a tad 'happier' than usual ;) It was very fun even if I did just sit there making arab jokes and playing Neopet games add me btw I'm katiepie791 :)

Saturday: Natalie stayed at mine and we got 'happy' and drunk a bottle of bourbon. It was crazy fun.
Photos from the night.




Sunday: Went shopping with my clothing money : D Bought... A white v-neck t-shirt with a camera on it, this cardigan styled shirt, a cardigan I have wanted for ages and ages some red and black tights and this amazing trench coat that was on sale for only $109 : D

Not again...

Haha as usual I'm home sick -____-
I wish I could just stay healthy for once.
Hmmm

Schools back!

And I will have a good year and I will succeed.
I have made lots of beautiful friends in these last few weeks and I'm loving it fresh start here I come.

MIss you?

I miss you but i hope it just the whisky talking.

Name calling now?

Haha you silly boy all your name calling is reminding me of how immature you truly can be.

I’m a bitchy, slutty disgusting think I’m perfect whore hahahahhahaha ;) only for you my friend.

I now know what love is, I now know it sucks...

No more self pity girl!

No more self pity girl!Well why should I mope around feeling shit because people don’t care about me I just went through my memory box and saw all the letters from my real friends from when I was in hospital none of which got caught up about the gossip. Oh how I love you Michelle, Natalie, Christie and Yssie plus all the others that even though didn’t write me letters stills stuck by me.
Why dwell on who sucks when you can look at all the people that rock <3

Yesterday... Fail

Well Yesterday was one of those day you realize how shit everything can get so fast. It all started last weekend… You see me and my boyfriend of eight months have broken up for the millionth time but this time was different I was determined to move on and keep all my friends. So at the Saturday night party I was at I saw nothing wrong with hooking up with this this guy (I will not name as I don’t know who reads this haha) but wow how everyone seemed to get sooo upset! You see I don’t think I should feel bad we were both single and I just want to be young and dumb but no everyone has all this gossip that everyone seems to be more interested in spreading lies than my friendship can’t everyone just believe all we did was makeout? I have no reason to lie to them but no the evil monster gossip is have ruined yet an-others life.

Oh how things change.

Haha the blogger herself